Dear Fren,
Sorry, i couldnt be there for you when you needed me. I slept super early last night and woke up in the middle of the night.Then, i searched for my phone to check the time when saw 2 missed call and a msg saying "Hi,I want to talk to you so if you see this call me. "It sounded pretty serious to me. So i pop out of bed to on my computer and true enough i found ur facebook status and ur blog updated with all ur sorrows. However, i am pretty amazed that you're still able to sleep after all . This proves that you're still a guy. Haha :p
I wanted to wait til morning to talk to you but that was not what God has in plan. haha. Mayb its more serious than i think. Anyway, guess what's the topic of my devotion today?
Wounded Lover : What God's power cannot accomplish. Hosea 11
" Many people think of God as an impersonal force,something akin(similar) to the law of gravity. By contrast, Hosea potrays God as a Person of passion,fury,tears,love-a God in mourning over his people's rejection.
God uses hosea's unhappy story to illustrate his own whipsaw(victimised) emotions. That first blush of love in finding Isreal, God says, was like finding grapes in the desert(9:10) But as Isreal breaks His trust over again and again, God endured the awful shame of a wounded lover. God's words carry a tone surprisingly like self-pity:" I am like a moth to Ephriam,like rot to the people of Judah'(5:12)
Love's Power and Powerlessness
The strong image of a jilted(rejected) lover explains why, in a chapter lik Hosea 11, God's emotion seem to vacillate so. God prepares to obliterate Isreal-wait now he is weeping, holding out open arms-no,he is sternly pronouncing judgement again. Those shifting moods seem hopelessly irrational, except to anyone who has been jilted by a lover.
Is there a more powerful human feeling than that evoked by betrayal?
Hosea and God demostrate in living colours exactly how it feels to love someone desparately, and receive nothing in return. Not even God, with all his power, can force a human being to love Him ."
Its alright to feel sad about it. God does, when His people disobey Him. But you still have to overcome those rejections.My advice- Turn to God for healing. God knows how it feels to be rejected. He has been through it much more than us. Talk to God about ur problems, it will make you feel better :)You asked why do girls always reject you? BECAUSE THEY AREN'T THE RIGHT ONE FOR YOU!haha :D
I will say this again and again til you get bored of this and you can even say it in your sleep.
" Don't Rush into relationship! Only go when u're ready and God gives you the green light! :)"
One last thing- Depend on God's love and not humans :) Always put God first,ya?
Love ,
Jane
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Yum Yum!
Fly from AS to Subang by Firefly on Saturday evening:) Koko picked us up at the airport and ate dinner, Bak Kut Teh near by our place. The truth is when i'm in KL i no longer have any sense of direction. haha. After dinner, we came home and rest.
Sunday morning, we woke up around 9 sumthing and attended the 11.00am service in SIB KL. After church, we went over to Aunty's place to visit grandma. And since Aunty taman is just oppostie Tropicana city, we headed over to have lunch.
herbal jelly which i only had a spoonful. BITTER!
My mayo fried prawn rice
Then we came home and took a rest before heading out to Uncle's apartment in Kota Damansara. Parents went in to clean the place while I sat on the couch looking around at all his decoration. The TV was so full of all kinds of decoration from vase to elephants to human statue.It no longer have any space for any new decoration. haha. And since we were out, we tapau nasi lemak home for dinner.
Here comes monday morning, I followed dad out to Tesco to do some groceries shopping. And i have to admit i am sorta addicted to nutrigen. haha. I have sorta lost count of how many bottles i have drink becauase some packaging comes with 5 bottles and while others have 6 bottles. Definitely more than 25 bottles in a month :D
Dinner time, mom cooked my favourite fried bihoon with stew pork from the can. Yummy yummy! I have tried to cook by myself but it doesnt taste lik hers.
Mummy's fried bihoon!
Tuesday morning, dad woke me up to have dim sum :) If i am not mistaken its in SS22. I ate till i couldnt move :p
prawn with crispy bread
fried prawn wanton
char siew pao
chee chong fun
har gao, xiao long pao, siew mai, fishball
Late that afternoon, dad and I went to Tropicana city to buy a universal adapter for Moe. Did some extra groceries shopping as well cos mom complaint that we bought only a bunch of vege yesterday. Afterthat, dad bought me to SS2 to buy bak kua. On the way, we saw durian and soya bean milk so we bought them as well:)
Wednesday, we went to 1U for the movie, The Spy Next Door, parents say it wasnt that nice and the storyline was almost the same as The Pacifier. But i like it. I like all Jackie Chan movies because it always so funny :) Had Rotiboy after the movie and headed to Ikea for lunch and done some shopping there.
Swedish Meatballs!
What's next? Parents warned me that they are going to stay at home all day tomoro:( It might be a good thing after all, I need to arrange my freaking timetable for uni. I dont feel lik going back to uni.
Work + Classes + Labs + Assignments + Study + Exams = HARD WORK = TIRED = SAD.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Mummy's birthday
13th January 2010- Its was mummy's birthday:) We left house around 8 in the morning for Penang. Immediately after we reached, we headed to our favourite beefball noodles stall for brunch. After brunch we went to Gurney GSC hoping to get tickets for movies since it was a Wednesday, Movie Day. When the counters were opened at 11am, we were the first few ones to que up but surprisingly AVATAR 3D was almost sold out throughout the day :( the only one left were the first 2 rows. We didnt want to pay for severe neck pain. haha. But it was a good thing dad decided to stay over a night so we bought tickets for the next day. So we did a little shopping while waiting for the 12 oclock Sherlock Holmes to start. Bought sock for flat shoes because i have smelly feet :p
Movie was pretty good. Holmes is an amazing scientist. His senses are super duper cool especially when he was blindfolded and brought to Mr Thomas' house. He knew exactly where his was by the sense of smell and sounds. He even asked Mr Thomas why did he took the trouble to blindfold him. LOL and he figure out how did Sir Blackwood fake his own death. :)
After the movie, we tookaway McD to YMCA, ate-nap-bathe-dinner with Uncle and family which destroyed our plan to gurney drive.
After dinner, we went back to Gurney for more shopping. When i said more, i mean MORE. haha. Spent over RM200 that day. Oops!
The next morning, we had curry mee in Pulau Tikus and went back,took a bath and pack our clothes. Then, we went to Gurney for our next movie. Avatar 3D. Nice:) But poor thing, the guy beside dad went off after awhile,not sure why,but dad was guessing that he didnt understand English that well and the movie was without subtitle. Malaysians probably still doesnt know how to create the "floating" effect of subtitles in 3D movies. or its just to troublesome. haha.
After the movie, we headed off for lunch. Then we stopped by Butterworth on the way home to Uncle Foo's dad's funeral. After an hour off sembang-ing, it was time to go home:)
Night time, Xin Jou and I went to pasar opposite Alor Star mall. Ate tawainese sausage- drank bubble tea- bought a dress and telephone wired rubberband for hair.
Ohya, about my grandaunty. She is recovering well :) On tuesday when i visited her, to my surprise, she sat with me in front of the television and watched a singapore drama for half an hour,ate 6 Julie's chocolate egg rolls,a Lexus cheese biscuit,a cup of ice cream, drank a cup of milo. Before and after a week of operation, she would only wake up to eat and then straight back to her bed to rest. And the amount she ate was half of wat she is eating right now. Thank God for answering my prayers and yours too( if you prayed along) :D
Now its time to pack :)
Monday, January 11, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Trust in Him
If you're in Malaysia right this moment, you should know about the churches attack. Yes, you're right! Three local churches have been attacked by fire-bombed- Metro Tabernacle Church in Desa Melawati, the Assumption Church in Jalan Templer, Petaling Jaya, and the Life Chapel Church in Section 17, also in Petaling Jaya. And according to Malaysia Kini, two other churches have received phone threats.
Jesus said :"Love you enemies". However before you can love ur enemies, first u need to FORGIVE them for their mistake. At this time of trouble, we christians need to show that our Almighty God is LOVE. So do continue to LOVE them and let them know that we are not troubled by these little things. Bombing churches? think about it, there are just buildings,man-made buildings.God does not live in man-made building, but HE LIVES WITHIN US! We do not need a church to worship him. We can worship him anywhere,anytime. Besides, God is our Provider, so we don have to worry about funds on rebuilding the church. We just need to have faith in Him:)
Thank God for the government acknowledging that its was wrong to bomb the churches:)
p/s: If we,non Muslim, were to be banned from using the word "Allah" , does that mean we are not allowed to sing our Kedah State anthem? Or are they gonna change the word Allah?
In my personal opinion on the usage of the word "Allah": I read in an article that Muslims are against non-Muslim of using it because they are afraid we misuse the word. It doesnt really much sense at all. The word " Allah " is used for worship. Don't they think that we non-Muslim respect our God? We do! How then are we misusing it?
Jesus said :"Love you enemies". However before you can love ur enemies, first u need to FORGIVE them for their mistake. At this time of trouble, we christians need to show that our Almighty God is LOVE. So do continue to LOVE them and let them know that we are not troubled by these little things. Bombing churches? think about it, there are just buildings,man-made buildings.God does not live in man-made building, but HE LIVES WITHIN US! We do not need a church to worship him. We can worship him anywhere,anytime. Besides, God is our Provider, so we don have to worry about funds on rebuilding the church. We just need to have faith in Him:)
Thank God for the government acknowledging that its was wrong to bomb the churches:)
p/s: If we,non Muslim, were to be banned from using the word "Allah" , does that mean we are not allowed to sing our Kedah State anthem? Or are they gonna change the word Allah?
Allah selamat Sultan Mahkota
Berpanjangan usia di atas Takhta
Memelihara agama Nabi kita
Negeri Kedah serata-rata
In my personal opinion on the usage of the word "Allah": I read in an article that Muslims are against non-Muslim of using it because they are afraid we misuse the word. It doesnt really much sense at all. The word " Allah " is used for worship. Don't they think that we non-Muslim respect our God? We do! How then are we misusing it?
Thursday, January 7, 2010
10 laps:)
I finally got myself to do something useful !
Dad and I went swimming in Kedah Club today.
Both of us swam 10 laps, to and fro. proud of myslef :)
Dad and I went swimming in Kedah Club today.
Both of us swam 10 laps, to and fro. proud of myslef :)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Thunders
Rain rain go away
Come again another day
Little Jane wants to play
Rain rain go away
Its been raining cats and dogs for these few days. Go away rain! I rather it freaking hot than wet.
This reminds me of a my funny little theory of thunder. As a little kid, i was very scared of thunders. I didnt scream or cry when i heard the loud and frightening sounds of thunders but i need to be with someone who comforts me. If it comes during midnights, i will run to my parents’ room and tuck myself between them. As i grew older, i remembered i ask dad what are thunders? and why does it sounds so loud? Dad told me 'Its because God is angry.' I silently accepted the answer but i didnt exactly understood it. I kept asking myself –Why is God angry? What is it about? Was it because me? What did i do wrong? So from that day onwards, i started praying for forgiveness every time there were thunders. Sometimes, I will keep on praying until it was over. But as year passed by, i do pray when there are thunders but i finally got the idea of God wasn’t angry at me alone. There are other sinners too. I thought to myself "After i pray, i’ll be fine." Slowly, i overcame my fear of thunders. However, i found a linked to my thunder story years after. It was during my Form5 year, I was having a conversation with Sam and it started raining so i decided to tell him about what my dad told me thunder was when i was a little kid and guess what? He told me that his dad told him, there is thunder because God is spanking all the demons’ butt. Suddenly, it made sense why God was so angry and where all the loud and frightening sound came from.
:D actually i still don't know what causes the sound of thunders? Do you?
Come again another day
Little Jane wants to play
Rain rain go away
Its been raining cats and dogs for these few days. Go away rain! I rather it freaking hot than wet.
This reminds me of a my funny little theory of thunder. As a little kid, i was very scared of thunders. I didnt scream or cry when i heard the loud and frightening sounds of thunders but i need to be with someone who comforts me. If it comes during midnights, i will run to my parents’ room and tuck myself between them. As i grew older, i remembered i ask dad what are thunders? and why does it sounds so loud? Dad told me 'Its because God is angry.' I silently accepted the answer but i didnt exactly understood it. I kept asking myself –Why is God angry? What is it about? Was it because me? What did i do wrong? So from that day onwards, i started praying for forgiveness every time there were thunders. Sometimes, I will keep on praying until it was over. But as year passed by, i do pray when there are thunders but i finally got the idea of God wasn’t angry at me alone. There are other sinners too. I thought to myself "After i pray, i’ll be fine." Slowly, i overcame my fear of thunders. However, i found a linked to my thunder story years after. It was during my Form5 year, I was having a conversation with Sam and it started raining so i decided to tell him about what my dad told me thunder was when i was a little kid and guess what? He told me that his dad told him, there is thunder because God is spanking all the demons’ butt. Suddenly, it made sense why God was so angry and where all the loud and frightening sound came from.
:D actually i still don't know what causes the sound of thunders? Do you?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
An Unfortunate start
Each year, for most people, they look forward to a new year hoping for a brand new start. However, the start of my year seems pretty tough. I do not know what lies ahead but i definitely hope it will turn out alright(:
As i have mentioned before( a few post earlier) that my grandaunty had to undergo an operation. She finally got hers done on 31st December 2009. All of us were pretty nervous for her due to her old age. The doctors and surgeons have warned us about the post-surgical symptoms and one of them was she might not be able to wake up immediately after the operation. They said she might take days til she wakes up. So the night before her operation, i prayed a really long prayer for her. Prayed that her body is strong enough to be able to overcome the operation, prayed that she will be able to wake up after the operation, prayed that the anesthesia wouldn't be too strong on her,prayed for her to have confidence,to trust the surgeons to do a good job on her(because she was against it at first. Chinese in the olden days used lots of herbal medicine to cure themselves,so they wont go to the doctors unless it's emergency).... I prayed for every single person who was invovled in the operation, the anesthesiologist to have confidence in themselves to put the right amount of anesthesia for her and the surgeons' hands to be secure.
Indeed, the operation went really well that morning. She was the first patient that morning and to the doctors' surprise, she woke up at 1 sumthing in the afternoon. Moreover, i heard that she was pretty alert that afternoon. As soon as the numbness worn off, she started complaining that it was really really painful so the doctors gave her extra pain killers to ease her pain. So the next morning,they continued giving her pain killers to again ease off her pain. So when we visited her after church, she slept the entire time we where there. Even when the nurse,K, came to check her blood glucose level, K woke her up to let her know that K was going to poke a needle into her finger to take some blood sample, she opened her eyes to look at her and fall back to sleep immediately. So we when home earlier that day,letting her get her beauty sleep.
On sunday(3/1) we went to visit her again, this time she was so alert, she was like old times telling us stories of people who I don't even know about.( Huge family and i probably only know 10% of them) She just keep talking and talking and talking. And when they neighbour's(as in next bed) visitor saw her, my aunties told her that she was 91years old, they were so shocked because she looked so healthly and so cheerful. She didnt want to let us go home when visiting hours were over and the guard came up to chase us out. She kept asking us to stay with her but parents show the senior doctors scolding one the guards before in public because there were still quite a lot of visitors in the ward after visiting hours. So before we could cause anymore problems for the guards, we decided to leave.
*Some background so that u will be understand the next part of the story*
There were a few signs when they started giving her the extra pain killers, everytime the pain killer was injected into her body ,she will become slightly dizzy and just start to talk,anything that comes into her brain. When you talk to her, she won't respond. She is lik in her world of her own. My aunties were shocked when they first got to see these, but the doctors said its an side effect of the medicine and true enough after 15 minutes to an hour, she was back to normal.
Today(4/1) things started to get worst. She had insomnia(in my opionion),hence tired but couldnt sleep. And she wanted to go back so badly, she changed her clothes and was ready to leave anytime.but the doctors didnt say a word about when to go home. So she got really angry and started to scold everyone who was around her,even doctors. The doctors blame the medicine for her behaviour and they said all she need is rest right now. I have never seen/heard of her like that before. The one thing,we are afraid right now is that she loses her memories and wont be able to communicate with us anymore.
Many said that my grandaunty will leave up to 100 years( 91 this years) if she overcome this very obstacle in front of her and I believe she will:)
So do continue to pray for her. Pray that the side effect will be a short term one and that her body will return to normal. Pray for a miracle as well. Its really sad seeing someone so close to us but not yet a believer. What are we suppose to do? Especially the older generation have their tradition of praying to their ancestors, my hokkien is terrible and she is deaf one side. All of these are probably excuses but i ll keep on praying, for a miracle to happen.So let's pray together. One saved soul, and the angels in heaven will be celebrating:)
As i have mentioned before( a few post earlier) that my grandaunty had to undergo an operation. She finally got hers done on 31st December 2009. All of us were pretty nervous for her due to her old age. The doctors and surgeons have warned us about the post-surgical symptoms and one of them was she might not be able to wake up immediately after the operation. They said she might take days til she wakes up. So the night before her operation, i prayed a really long prayer for her. Prayed that her body is strong enough to be able to overcome the operation, prayed that she will be able to wake up after the operation, prayed that the anesthesia wouldn't be too strong on her,prayed for her to have confidence,to trust the surgeons to do a good job on her(because she was against it at first. Chinese in the olden days used lots of herbal medicine to cure themselves,so they wont go to the doctors unless it's emergency).... I prayed for every single person who was invovled in the operation, the anesthesiologist to have confidence in themselves to put the right amount of anesthesia for her and the surgeons' hands to be secure.
Indeed, the operation went really well that morning. She was the first patient that morning and to the doctors' surprise, she woke up at 1 sumthing in the afternoon. Moreover, i heard that she was pretty alert that afternoon. As soon as the numbness worn off, she started complaining that it was really really painful so the doctors gave her extra pain killers to ease her pain. So the next morning,they continued giving her pain killers to again ease off her pain. So when we visited her after church, she slept the entire time we where there. Even when the nurse,K, came to check her blood glucose level, K woke her up to let her know that K was going to poke a needle into her finger to take some blood sample, she opened her eyes to look at her and fall back to sleep immediately. So we when home earlier that day,letting her get her beauty sleep.
On sunday(3/1) we went to visit her again, this time she was so alert, she was like old times telling us stories of people who I don't even know about.( Huge family and i probably only know 10% of them) She just keep talking and talking and talking. And when they neighbour's(as in next bed) visitor saw her, my aunties told her that she was 91years old, they were so shocked because she looked so healthly and so cheerful. She didnt want to let us go home when visiting hours were over and the guard came up to chase us out. She kept asking us to stay with her but parents show the senior doctors scolding one the guards before in public because there were still quite a lot of visitors in the ward after visiting hours. So before we could cause anymore problems for the guards, we decided to leave.
*Some background so that u will be understand the next part of the story*
There were a few signs when they started giving her the extra pain killers, everytime the pain killer was injected into her body ,she will become slightly dizzy and just start to talk,anything that comes into her brain. When you talk to her, she won't respond. She is lik in her world of her own. My aunties were shocked when they first got to see these, but the doctors said its an side effect of the medicine and true enough after 15 minutes to an hour, she was back to normal.
Today(4/1) things started to get worst. She had insomnia(in my opionion),hence tired but couldnt sleep. And she wanted to go back so badly, she changed her clothes and was ready to leave anytime.but the doctors didnt say a word about when to go home. So she got really angry and started to scold everyone who was around her,even doctors. The doctors blame the medicine for her behaviour and they said all she need is rest right now. I have never seen/heard of her like that before. The one thing,we are afraid right now is that she loses her memories and wont be able to communicate with us anymore.
Many said that my grandaunty will leave up to 100 years( 91 this years) if she overcome this very obstacle in front of her and I believe she will:)
So do continue to pray for her. Pray that the side effect will be a short term one and that her body will return to normal. Pray for a miracle as well. Its really sad seeing someone so close to us but not yet a believer. What are we suppose to do? Especially the older generation have their tradition of praying to their ancestors, my hokkien is terrible and she is deaf one side. All of these are probably excuses but i ll keep on praying, for a miracle to happen.So let's pray together. One saved soul, and the angels in heaven will be celebrating:)
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Goodbye 2009 + Hello 2010 :)
In the year 2009,
- survived a year of uni's life
* achieved confidence in handling lab
* results weren't good :(
- joined a CG
- sucessfully invited a fren to church who is partially regular
- got a part time job at KFC
* saw a mutlitude of chicken pieces
* ate tons of chicken pieces
* NOW SICK OF CHICKEN!
* made lots of Indian's friends (who are from India),
- learnt to cook new dishes/desert/drinks:
* herbal chicken soup
* shepherd's pie
* cupcakes with vanilla icing and chocolate toppings
* baked pasta
* spagheti with creamy chicken soup
* fish porridge
* fried carrot cake
* muar chee
* chocolate and strawberry milkshake
- learnt to appreciate freindship
- learnt to trust in God more
2010's resolution
- not to eat KFC
- study regularly (hopefully everyday)
* achieve super duper excellent results
- increase the time of my daily quiet time with God
* stronger and closer relationship
- learn to cook more dishes esp chicken curry
- earn enough money for a trip to NZ
- make new frens esp Australian fren
- be a better friend :)
- spend less time on facebook!
Have a blessed 2010 year!:)
- survived a year of uni's life
* achieved confidence in handling lab
* results weren't good :(
- joined a CG
- sucessfully invited a fren to church who is partially regular
- got a part time job at KFC
* saw a mutlitude of chicken pieces
* ate tons of chicken pieces
* NOW SICK OF CHICKEN!
* made lots of Indian's friends (who are from India),
- learnt to cook new dishes/desert/drinks:
* herbal chicken soup
* shepherd's pie
* cupcakes with vanilla icing and chocolate toppings
* baked pasta
* spagheti with creamy chicken soup
* fish porridge
* fried carrot cake
* muar chee
* chocolate and strawberry milkshake
- learnt to appreciate freindship
- learnt to trust in God more
2010's resolution
- not to eat KFC
- study regularly (hopefully everyday)
* achieve super duper excellent results
- increase the time of my daily quiet time with God
* stronger and closer relationship
- learn to cook more dishes esp chicken curry
- earn enough money for a trip to NZ
- make new frens esp Australian fren
- be a better friend :)
- spend less time on facebook!
Have a blessed 2010 year!:)
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